In which I ramble on about being a messy human.
Disclaimer: the things that happened on the way to this blog post may not actually be funny.
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You know how I said a couple of weeks/posts ago that February had been about “getting over myself“?
Yeah, well, it looks like that work is continuing into March…
I had such great plans this week – get a post written up early, have time to write some other things I have brewing away, maybe even get a post or two ahead…
Yeah, well, between physio loosening some physical blockages in my body and angst making me face some energetic blockages, this has not been a week for breezing on ahead!
Instead I’ve been dallying with my old buddies Fear and Avoidance and visiting our mutual acquaintance Procrastination for some extended periods… (tip: always close Minecraft when you close your computer to reduce temptation when you open it up again)
I hate this! I hate when I fall into these old routines! And I hate needing to ‘fess up to my imperfections!
Yeah, well, sometimes I don’t leave myself any other choice…
That is the annoying thing about being human: I’m not perfect (not by any stretch of the imagination!)
Yet I am an eternal optimist: this coming week will be different, I blithely plan. This will be the week when everything swims and flows and I do amazing. Then it turns out to be just another regular week. Every week.
I keep thinking I’ve got myself sussed – but the daily grind wears down my intended discipline and I succumb to my usual temptations. Where did that time go?
And once again, I’m scrambling at the week’s end to make my self-imposed deadline and berating myself for not being more “onto it”.
I understand this makes me normal! Which is a small comfort. It is nice to know I’m not alone in my messy humanness.
Sometimes I wish I was my cat… regretting getting only 17 hours sleep today and being feed that cheap food again and that it rained before I got outside for my morning constitutional… It seems so much simpler! We humans do drive ourselves hard with our ambitions and dreams and goals and plans…
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As a result of this week and this post, I’ve decided to take a more relaxed approach to my blogging.
Rather than trying to be some super-mystic hero-Coach-with-a-capital-C, I think I’ll just be myself! There’s no point trying to pretend that I’ve got this life thing completely sussed and that I’ve evolved beyond my actual reality 😜
I am a messy human being with my own 💩 to sort – I admit it!
I will be writing plenty here every week. But there’ll be no ’10 tips’ or keyword BS or marketing jargon or customer avatars or acronym-ridden wotnots…
You’re just going to get me – and whatever I’m thinking about and finding my way through. And probably more emojis…
I hope that will still be helpful, and maybe even interesting, for you. At the very least, I hope you can find some comfort in my messy humanness! 😘
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If you want to chat with a fellow human who’s waded through a lot of life on their way to now, give me a yell! No BS – just practical advice & support for wherever you are at.